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Waiting For DeathWaiting on a wooden bridge
Standing under the moon
You said you would meet me
And you better be here soon
The rain is falling softly
But it won't disguise my tears
I need you to take me away
Please make it quick, my dear
Cover me in your black cloak
And lay me down to sleep
I'll lose my thoughts and torment
But my restless soul I'll keep
Kiss my lips softly
Until I become cold and pale
Just awaken me sweetly
From this place that I call hell
Now I see you approaching
A dark figure out of the mist
Your scythe sits on your shoulder
It's a sight I can't resist
As you walk ever closer
I see your distorted face
I'm screaming inside with agony
While I crave your dark embrace
Suddenly you're next to me
And then I feel the pain
My red blood surrounds us
After you pull out the blade
This isn't like I thought it would be
It's all come out so wrong
I dreamt up an illusion
Some imaginary song
Then I close my eyes
And fall into the burning fire
Yet, for some reason
You still fill me with desire
ChainedChained to a wall of darkness
I can see the light above
Left in repeated broken dreams
Craving the air I'm deprived of
But I'm not going this alone
You're chained here as well
Shadows walk among us
You comfort me in this hell
You catch my blackened tears
I warm your freezing heart
Perfect in a messed up way
Always together when we fall apart
My Falling KingdomI still see your face in the back of my mind
I lie in the blankets with tears in my eyes
It's killing us to part after so much time
But no one can change where the truth now lies
I get off the bed and look in the mirror
I'm wondering how we wound up here
Everything has happened that I used to fear
My heart is bleeding and my thoughts won't clear
The waves are crashing all around
Threatening to take the castle walls down
With my entire kingdom I will drown
What good is a princess without her crown?
I still feel your touch and the taste of your lips
Our love played out with a burning script
I'm dying inside as my fantasy slips...
Now I'm walking down to my frozen crypt
Fallen StarIf I finally open my eyes,
Will they see the beauty inside?
Can they know a fallen star,
In the darkest hour of the night?
I always hide in shadow
So they can't even see my face
But if I come out into the light
Will they help me reach my fate?
I want to take my place forever
In the kingdom in the sky
Will they really let me get there,
So I no longer want to die?
RuinsYour sadness is true
Tears have been ignored
No one to help you
No way to restore
Your innocence was taken
Crawling all alone
Your life stands in ruins
No way to go home
Your heart is broken
Nowhere to run
The threads loosen
The damage is done
Hoping for death
The only salvation
Losing your last breath
You're coming undone
No way to escape
You only stay lost
No more faith
Only dark chaos
No one will save you
They're too selfish
Your sanity you will lose
With a cut to your wrist
The silence is too loud
No one that cares
When they turn around
You won't be there
Just How I FeelI don't really know how to say this
Want to express to you just how I feel
I wrote this poem with all of my heart
It's the only way I know how to heal
The sun shines in mocking repitition
Coming from a world I no longer adore
It's just not the same without you here
I should never have walked out the door
Our seperation almost killed me
It is my biggest mistake I have made
I am left alone with nobody to care
To tell you the truth I am afraid
I am sorry that I failed you
Just really want you back with me
Cannot explain this pressure
Now when I see you my heart bleeds
You are the one that can make me smile
And make me laugh or cry
I never wanted to hurt you so bad
Only you know who I am inside
I am sure you are asking yourself why
Your kiss keeps me sane
I mean every word that I have written
You need to know that this is not a game
I am sure you are speechless by now
But I had to make my feelings known
If you don't take me back I understand
Maybe I am meant to be alone
MadnessBe quiet as you wonder
Into the darkness of my mind
Don't wake up the danger
And don't expect the divine
Once you see the madness
You will want to return home
Then you will understand
Why I'm always in shadow
Burning roses hold my thoughts
And I can't control the fire
Do you know what it's like,
To not feel any desire?
Demons clawing at my face
Trying to make me become
Something I don't want to be
But it has already begun
Death is my silent lullaby
Moonlight fills my sanctuary
Watch out for the edge
Of all my haunted memories
In the once colorful meadows
Now stand withering plants
Black from the despair
Ruined by my human hands
Yes, I have many regrets
I don't expect to be saved
Know I'll be here forever
Frozen in Hell's black rain
Sleeping TragedyLost in a trance
With no escape
Take my hand
Release my fate
It could be over
I can be free
Kiss my lips
Yes, a kiss
Sounds so strange
But I know
It's the only way
Have to endure
Pain shakes me
To my very core
War to be won
Laughable to some
Don't make me
Wait for you
You already know
Exactly what to do
Wake me now
Unlock my cage
Free my soul
From the rage
CreationI all alone weep in disgrace
Thinking over what I have done
I let them play around with me
Nothing left but their creation
My world overtaken by theives
Their only goal to change what I was
Taken away what I most enjoy
I look upon myself in disgust
Not a drop of the girl I used to be
No one telling my fate now
I rose to the worst occasions
I have to get back somehow
A Dance in the RainUnder the rain,
My fury and pain
Will vanish, evaporate, wash away.
Under the moist, misty air,
I have not one single care,
As I dance to a wordless tune.
My toes tip! tap! tatter!
To words that don't matter,
For I know this will all end soon.
But I need not worry,
For I'm not in a hurry
Let the raindrops carry me home.
For when the sky's tears subdue,
I will think of you,
And then not feel so alone <3
Long Letters, Make PoemsI have been here before,
a long time ago,
when we were happy,
and we swear our love.
Love was our fuel,
it ended dying with our last kiss,
not matter what i did,
you ended forgetting bout me.
You were my hope,
my light in the dark,
a sweet sound to make me shine,
i cant believe that you send me to fly.
Why you let me alone in the dark,
wasn't I enough for you?
or simple you never loved me enough?
i will never know why left me out of your life.
Have you think about me?
have you missed me?
have you ever wish for me?
have you been love as i loved you with all my will?
You and only you will cure my heart,
longing for you my sickness has become,
in words i try to hide even if it is never enough,
i will run as far as i can just to escape from your eyes.
Forsaken in this place i am,
not a man but a doll of what i was,
a shadow just hiding in the dark,
how fool i have been to give you my all.
Me, I and myself all of us love you as well,
pretty feelings i try to write,
sadly hate is all i have,
Was there much pain?Was there much pain?
In the end, you couldn't tell.
As your heart beat slowed,
Taking your warmth with it,
On it's way out.
Your eyes grew heavy,
Half-lidded, they sought me,
I was there, beside you,
Holding your cold hand,
But you couldn't see me.
As your last neurons fire,
Your life is spent at last.
In that final moment,
Was there much pain?
Through Windows and DoorsBreak away,
Into a million pieces,
A million birds flying on the wind.
Escape the mundane, through windows and doors.
Shed the shackles that hold you in place.
Clamor into the silence,
Shatter the oppression of noiselessness.
Breech the surface, turn the key,
Unwrap the bindings and let life breath.
Pick the locks on the doors of the prisons when the guards won't listen.
Set the flame and let it engulf your heart.
Pierce the heart, damn the mind
Love can make a person blind.
Loss of nerve, loss of speech
The sight of you just makes me weak.
The hint of your sent sends me reeling,
And I can't stand the pain I'm feeling.
I put myself out, everything on the line,
And you've shown me I can't make you mine.
You never were good for me
But that's so very hard to see
When all I want is you and me
Forever till eternity.
I think, perhaps, I'll ne'er be free
The chains of love have captured me.
Memories.......My memories......Lost, broken and faded away.......
Time stands still.......Who am I?........What happened?.......Something's gone...
Can't remember........Someone Help ME!!!.........
The room is spinning.......A hand........A face.......Whose?.......
Frustration, agony and fear........
It stops........A hand, a face. Not mine......Who are you?.......
I can't remember........Do I know you?.....You smile.....
A touch.....You take my hand.......We walk away........
Safety, happiness and love.....
I smile back........With you I'll stay.....
To Who I Was:If life hit you hard, fall, but stand tall,
If everything seem lost, go back to rise once more,
if you who is lost don't know where to go, open you arms and embrace the love,
if love fail you and don't know what to hold, use your anger and face the world.
RejectionDon't try to hide
From what you can't ignore
If you close your eyes
You better be sure
It's not worth your time
Unless you find a cure
Just try to look inside
Take your final tour
Walk down the halls
Remember what you see
You say you got it all
But you're without me
Rejection against your wall
I only feel the sting
On the floor I crawl
As you walk out and leave
The Coffee GodThe Coffee God behind the counter shuffles foot to foot, a dance of steam and espresso. Black painted fingernails, inch gauged ears and a gray striped sweatshirt, hood crooked on his back. There's a cigarette tucked behind one ear; it bobs and twitches with each step.
“Non-fat caramel latte,” he calls, just as he always does, part of a spell, part of a mantra, toneless (just a tuck at the end). I reach. He looks up.
The espresso maker hisses.
There's something like a grin, something like a spark, something like a shared secret linked eye to eye. When he passes over the drink (rough cardboard sleeve hot to the touch), he lingers. Our fingers brush, a shiver, a jolt, a ten-watt shock.
The Coffee God tilts his chin, shouts, “Hey, mind if I take my break now?”
and ducks around the counter without waiting for a reply.
He slips his cigarette between his lips without taking his eyes from mine. I follow him out the door.
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